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15 March 2002 (Friday): brevity

I've been thinking about my Unified Theory of Predestination lately. (Sarcastic capitalization there, never fear.) It's occurred to me that maybe it's just a cop-out, an escape from my own intellectual inadequacy. I just can't wrap my brain around the idea of true randomness. Everything has causes. Every moment has all moments before it as influence, as forces that push it in one direction or another. So that thing that arises out of absolutely nowhere, unbidden and unpredicted -- where does that come from? Can it exist at all?

I would write a treatise on this, but I have an engineering team meeting to attend, and items to cross off my many to-do lists so that I don't fall into a state of quiet panic again. This tends to happen every six weeks or so. I'm not sure if I'll ever be cured of it; the only way to deal with it is to take little baby steps until the inertia starts to work in my favor. Right now, that means paying my heating bill.

Have a lovely weekend, ladies and gents.

posted by enjelani @ 01:47 PM PST