27 November 2002 (Wednesday)
saying grace
I am thankful for every single thing in my life. Including mosquitoes and those punkass kids at the burger joint. Including the lonely hours after dusk, this chronic case of Catholic-style guilt, and pimples inside the nose.
But I am especially thankful the following, in no particular order: my mother, my apartment, musical instruments, my computer, clocks, great books I have yet to read, Soren in all his Venus-As-A-Boy-ness, everyone who leaves comments on this silly little journal, a youthful body that puts up with all manner of abuse and still enjoys bounding around in the back yard, bright colors, fresh cornbread, and late-night conversations in the kitchen.
If I die tomorrow it probably wouldn't be so nice for some of you, but it'd be fine with me.
posted by enjelani @ 09:22 PM PST [ link ]
26 November 2002 (Tuesday)
attention span
So sad: I have my generation's attention span (this is spite of having no TV), so I invariably fall asleep during classical music concerts, and abandon books somewhere around Chapter 4. It's pop songs, short stories and magazine articles for this gal. I'm afflicted with cultural ADD.
I like to think that it's not so much impatience as a need, ironically, for commitment. I don't date casually; when I'm with someone, I'm really with him. On the occasion that I do read a full book, I absorb it in one sitting, at most two or three, staying up the whole night if necessary. It just takes a lot to get me that interested. I have to know what I'm getting into and why I'm getting into it. Otherwise I'd rather hang out at the buffet table and snack.
Tangentially: whatever we don't earn, we take for granted. Those of us who grew up with so-called modern conveniences don't even think of them as conveniences. To us, they're requirements. Who marvels now at running water, supermarkets, automobiles? We weren't there to see how it was before these things were invented and made common, so we have no appreciation for them. Which begs the question: where are we headed, if with every new generation we need more assistance just to survive?
posted by enjelani @ 10:49 AM PST [ link ]