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23 January 2002 (Wednesday): song infatuation

Every now and then I have a torrid affair with a song. I have to listen to it over and over and over again, and just hearing it makes me close my eyes and inhale deeply, grinning like an idiot from sheer bliss. Song and I have to be together all the time, every spare moment, and it haunts me when it's not here in the flesh (or in the CD player, anyway). Then one day it all just ends. No more love-of-my-life feelings. No more making out while in line for amusement park rides. We go our separate ways, and I feel vaguely cheated even though I know no one's at fault. And many years later, we meet up again, by chance, have a drink (just cranberry juice for me, thanks) and shake our heads as we reminisce about our passionate days.

My current lover-song is an overplayed rock anthem. I sniffed unappreciatively the first time I saw the video on MTV. I can't tell you why I'm so obsessed with it right now. All I know is that when I'm driving on the highway with it blasting from my speakers and there's sun breaking through the clouds over there by the mountains, life never felt so good.

And no, I'm not going to tell you what it is. (I've got multiple CD players, so it's not off the album listed over there on the left. Nice try.) If you love it too, I'll be reminded that I share this song with millions of other people, which is not something I want to think about right now, and if you don't love it, then you'll think I have questionable taste in music. No-win situation. I ain't talking.

posted by enjelani @ 02:13 AM PST

Replies: 2 comments

I listened to "Yakusoku Wa Iranai" again today after having not listened to it (purposely) for about a week or two...

Still made me get goose bumps, tingle, and smile a big ass grin ;)

I love music that can move me, and like you, hate when the feeling leaves me.

Hmph. But another song WILL come along, so I don't mind ;)

posted by syndromes @ 04 07 2002 11:34 PM PST

I remember my first infatuation it was this handsome boy with beautiful deep blue eyes he was my first love and I will never love anyone the way that I loved him

posted by Louisa Lugo @ 07 03 2003 05:06 PM PST